Grant - Day 1

Grant - Over the past few days I have been going through a program called "30 days to a better man". Each day comes with a new task for self improvement. for example, the first day is 1. Define your core values. This task was interesting because it required me to look within myself and ask what drove me every day. What subconsciously made me want to get out of bed that morning and the next to continue existing. Here is the entry i put for that day -

Strength: I believe that strength is something far beyond just muscles. It is a desire burning in my heart for more strength everyday. It is the driving force in my life to push my limits mentally, spiritually and physically. To gain in intelligence, closer to God and to find out how far this body God gave me can go. To find the limits of my physical body and mental abilities, then to push past them in my never ending quest for perfection. Matthew 5:48. But there is also a strength in weakness. Or as Callan told me, “There is a strength in your vulnerability.” I have found that being physically strong has opened up doors with certain people but being vulnerable and open has opened up way more. And as a man it takes quite a bit of strength to show your weaknesses and mistakes due to inhibiting pride.

Integrity: When you give your word, you keep it. It’s as simple as that. A man is only as good as his word. And if he can not keep that then he has nothing because integrity is the foundation of trust.

Logic/Emotions: I try to live my life by logic. Though emotions do have a place. The book of Ecclesiastes talks about how there is a time for everything. Emotions are not for decision making. I have found that people who are quick to decide rather than think about a decision when you have the time, usually make the wrong decision. I also believe that Emotions in themselves are subjective by nature. Neither good nor evil.

Anger: Yes, I am constantly angry. But not at people. At myself. Not in a self loathing way but in a driving force to push myself to be better. Mixed with my beliefs on Strength and my competitive nature I am always angry at who I am. I am angry when someone gets a better grade then me, not out of jealousy but because I know I could be so much better. So much smarter. Or when someone out lifts me. I know I could be so much stronger and it pushes me to want to be better every day.